Top 5 Reasons Why I HATE Audiobooks|From an Avid Audiobook Listener Perspective

Okay, so I don’t actually hate audiobooks… I actually love audiobooks! I love that I can read a book while I’m doing laundry, scootering to work, walking to school or simply lying on my bed just listening to the story. I love how fast I can “read” a book because I use 2x speed. I love the voice actors/actresses and the extra features that audiobooks provide. If I’m honest, most of my reading is audiobooks! I use Scribd and Libby which I highly recommend (Audible is TRAAAASSSHHHHH).

But, ah, nothing is perfect. When I finish an audiobook, I am pleased, but dread hovers over me because now I have to review it! Maybe it’s just me, but I hate reviewing audiobooks. There are also some minor things that also irk me as well. So, here are the top 5 reasons why I audiobooks are sometimes not my best friend!

Reason 1: Quoting

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It’s so hard to quote a book when you are listening to it! In my reviews, I love to add evidence and/or meaningful quotes to my reviews, but it’s almost impossible with audiobooks. I know I can just rewind, but that’s so much extra work. I wish there is a feature when you listen to a quote you want to keep, you can “highlight” it somehow. Goodreads provides the most famous quotes in the book, but it’s still annoying.

Reason 2: The Voices

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Okay, even though I said I love audiobook voices but if you have a horrible narrator, it’s basically over for you. The narrator can quickly change the tone of the book, so if he/she/they have an immature, whiny, monotone attitude, it can affect the overall experience of the book! Also, I sometimes laugh when one gender tries to imitate another gender because it sounds like they are trying waaaay to hard.

Reason 3: Page Numbers 

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If you are subscribed to Scribd, you know the difficulty of trying to convert where you are into the story with page numbers. I usually divide the book’s page count (provided by Goodreads) to the number of chapters and will use that to determine what page I’m on. I know with Libby, it’s easier because you have a percentage, so you just multiply the decimal point of that percentage to the number of the book’s pages. My GOD WHY DO I NEED TO DO ALL THIS MATH?!?! I’M A READER NOT A MATHEMATICIAN

Reason 4: Abandoning Your Music for Audiobooks

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Okay, this one is just petty, but sometimes I stop listening to music for WEEKS because of audiobooks. I listen to J.Cole’s album, KOD, TWO WEEKS AFTER it was released because I wanted to focus on finishing some audiobooks. I love you audiobooks, but I miss my music listening too. Balancing both passions is difficult.

Reason 5: Technical Difficulties

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Sometimes, especially Libby, won’t save my place and so when I try to resume an audiobook, I lost my place completely! It’s a pain in the butt trying to scroll through the time stamp, trying to figure out where you are in the story.  I’ve also dealt with chapter skipping and buffering that made me just want to throw my phone.

Do you have a love/hate relationship with audiobooks? 

Now to spread a little bit of positivity, here are the audiobooks I recommend:

♥Yes Please by Amy Poehler
♥Tyler Johnson Was Here by Jay Coles
♥Not That Bad edited by Roxane Gay
♥Simon Vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli
♥Never Let You Go by Chevy Stevens

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To the People Who Watched 13 Reasons Why

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I feel like the show lacked the importance of mental health, suicide prevention, etc so here are some friendly reminders.

  1. If you know somebody that has the symptoms of suicidal, giving them love is good, but please encourage them to seek help. If you are in high school, tell your friend about the counseling services and/or even go with them to a session. If you are in college, do the same and there’s most likely even more resources. 
  2. Signs of someone who may be thinking about committing suicide: change in mood, change in sleep pattern, change in appearance, change in eating habits, lack of care in personal hygiene, giving away personal items, withdraw from activities/people, joking/threatening about suicide/self harm, reckless behavior ([binge] drinking , smoking, etc).
  3. If your school has them, take a mental aid training session. I took a QPR (Question, Persuade, Infer) suicide course and it was amazing. You learn how to ask someone if they are thinking about committing suicide, you persuade them to not do the act, and refer them to help. This may seem like a simple process but the training provides a better insight on how to act on these three steps. There are also other courses that focuses on other aspects of mental health. Most of these courses are FREE!!!
  4. If you yourself are experiencing suicidal thoughts, you are not alone. There’s people who want to help and what you’re feeling is just temporary. Talk to a loved one and/or most importantly see a certified counselor/therapist. Take it from me, seeking help may seem scary but it’s the best thing I’ve done in my entire life and I wouldn’t be here today if I didn’t. 
  5. If you know somebody who self harms, don’t judge, don’t shame. Give them the support they need. Listen to them. Don’t give them so much advice rather inform them on the resources. Be patient because self-harm addiction isn’t easy to just give up.
  6. If you yourself self-harm, look at your patterns. Do you usually self-ham on a specific day? Try to keep yourself busy during those times. Read, take a walk, blog, write, phone a friend/family member, play on your phone, pet a dog, go to the mall (window shop!) cook, CLEAN, etc. Throw away the tools you use (some people say hide but this definitely did not work for me). I may sound like a broken record but get the help you need.
  7. If you know or who is  someone who was sexually assaulted and it’s within 72 hours, urge them to go get medical assistance and perform a rape kit. Don’t let them wash themselves or their clothes. Report the crime to law enforcement. Again, be patient with them. Don’t spread their business around school/town without their consent (same goes with all these points actually). If it’s passed the time period, still do everything. Go to counseling. No one should do this alone.
  8. Triggers are real. Tell your friends about what they are getting into. THESE ARE NOT SPOILERS. SUICIDE, SELF-HARM, SEXUAL ASSAULT ARE NOT SPOILERS. I wished I wish someone told me about the content of the show.  

Suicide Prevention Hotline:  Call 1-800-273-8255. 24 hours and confidential (I have had a good experience with them). If you are feeling suicidal, please seek help because you are wanted, you deserve life.

Self Harm Hotline:  Call 1-800-273-TALK (no experience but I hope you will still consider)

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 (no experience but I hope you consider)


The show promoted the importance of love but let’s not forget that love does not cure mental illness. Mental health awareness is important and people should know that seeking help doesn’t mean you’re weak. Let’s promote healthy lives.

I’m always here for you all. If you want to private message me with any concerns, questions of just need someone to talk to, you can DM on Twitter @QPullum


Ramble: Rating DNF books(?)

This post was inspired by abookolive‘s video
I never forced myself to finish a book if I’m not enjoying what I’m reading. I used to DNF a book, place it in the DNF shelf on Goodreads and then that was that. No rating and no read shelf. I already felt bad for DNFing a book because as a reader, I thought I HAD to finish books. I also thought rating a book that I didn’t finish was unfair because I didn’t give the book a proper chance and how can I judge something if I never finished it?

However, I think I may have this all wrong. I thought that not rating DNF books was an unspoken rule that all book lovers applied to their life. But then I realize that there are no rules in reading and us as readers shouldn’t reinforce our beliefs or habits on others.

So after much thought and consideration, I decided that for now on, I’m going to rate DNF books. HEAR ME OUT

I’m going to use The Diviners by Libba Bray as an example because after reading 300+ pages, I ended up DNFing (which I was really sad about).

My reasons for DNFing The Diviners is because I thought it was too slow for my liking. I spent almost 5 weeks trying to tackle these 300 pages. The characters weren’t that compelling and the plot never gripped me.

Therefore, I DNFed The Diviners and I was always tempted to give it a rating but I thought people would judge since I never actually finished the novel (almost 600 pages btw).

Thinking now, I think I had the right to rate the book. I pushed through 3oo pages, knowing the characters, the plot and all the other elements, I think that I can review it. Yes, it would be a one star review since I couldn’t finish it, but I had the right amount of evidence for me to state why I didn’t like the story so much. And not to sound harsh but I think it’s the author’s job to keep their audience interested in the story and if they fail to do that, then perhaps they should be held accountable for it.

That being said, it is my opinion and how I want to rate my books. Everyone has their own rating system and criteria on what makes a good books. It’s good to see multiple perspectives on books, even if it’s you’re favorite. DNFing you’re favorite book and giving it a one star shouldn’t affect the way you see the book.

Now, I’m not going to open a book, read a page, come to the idea that this book is garbage, and then give it a one star rating. When that situation occurs, I wouldn’t even DNF it I would PIDRI (Pretend I Didn’t Read It).

I gave The Diviners a rating and it felt good. It’s my bookshelf, my rating system, my beliefs. Rules Schmules amiright?

Anyways, what do you about this “issue?” Do you DNF books and give them ratings? Do you think that there are specific rules that all of us readers have to live by and posting this is an act of rebellion to the world of bibliophiles? Let me know!


A Ramble: Possessiveness vs Protectiveness in Fiction

Ramble: crazy unorganized  jumbled thoughts

Discussion: Organized thoughts

This is a ramble… you’ve been warned.

Well here’s something that most of us can agree on: We hate abusive males, we hate abusive females, we hate abusive people. More and more people are starting to neglect books and series that contains these types of characters.

However, what constitutes an abusive character. Physical abuse and rape are the obvious contenders. But mental abuse and possessiveness (which are also different types of abuse) is a little harder to detect, at least from my personal experience. And even in those two types of abuses, possessiveness seems to be the most popular and the hardest to detect. Why? Well, I think it has

Why? Well, I think it has to do with people, including myself, attempting to figure out the difference between possessiveness and protection.

Definition of Possessiveness: demanding someone’s total attention and love.

Definition of Protectiveness: having the quality or function of protecting.

These two definitions are clearly different yet when it comes to fiction, I have trouble telling difference.

Let’s play out some scenarios

A guy is keeping a girl from battle because he’s scared that she’s going to get hurt, he tells her “no no you must stay you will die, I can’t lose you” she continues to say “no no let me fight stop worrying about me” soon he locks her up in a room because he thinks that it will “protect.” 

Here’s another scenario

A girl and a guy are in a romantic relationship. However, an admirer approaches the girl and starts to flirt with her. The guy, although is jealous, knows something about the admirer…he’s a skilled manipulator who seeks to kill the girl’s father. But if the guy tells this to the girl, they would both be killed by the father of the admirer. The boy tells the girl, you can’t see him ever again he’s dangerous. The boy makes it his goal for the girl to never see the admirer again by always being with her. At a ball, the admirer asks the girl to dance and she has to say yes out of politeness. She dances with him and looking in his eyes, she starts to fall in love with him. They are about to kiss but then the boyfriend pushes the guy away and both the girl and guy starts to fight. The boy tells her the secrets that admirer processes but at the end she still loves him. The boy yells at her, asking why she portrayed him, at the end of the conversation he says “why did you betray me, you’re supposed to be mine.”

Note: I am not a writer or skilled storyteller and I don’t plan to be

Are both of theses scenarios show signs of protectiveness or possessiveness?

In scenario one, the boy tries to keep the girl from entering a bloodbath and so he locks her up. In this case, it’s the bloodbath vs. him.

In scenario two, the boy tries to keep the girl (who is also his girlfriend) from marrying a guy who would kill her father.

I created two scenarios that make this ramble even more complicated. In the first scenario one, the boy wants to keep the girl from dying…he’s protecting her. However, some might interpret this as possessiveness because he said “I can’t lose you” (like you can’t lose a toy) and even went great lengths to locking her up (isolating her from freedom and having the ability to pursue anything else which basically makes her a prisoner ) In scenario two, I think it’s possessiveness.

In scenario two, it’s even more confusing. Yes, the admirer was dangerous and the girl was about to cheat on the boy. The boy was only trying to protect the girl from danger. The boy loved the girl so he was heartbroken. However, one thing in the story made it seemed to lean towards the possessive side. “You’re supposed to be mine” This statement means that the girl is his and nobody else. He demands her love and attention to only her.  BUT THEN I thought “Couples always tell each other that I’m yours and you’re mine. Hell, there’s even valentines candy that says “Be Mine” WHY IS THIS SO COMPLICATED?

I remember reading Consequences by Aleatha Romig. I thought it was obvious that the male in that book showed possessiveness (even rape never happened before). The girl in the book had to give permission to do anything, and she could never leave the property.

But I think that’s too much of an obvious example

Twilight. Let’s talk about Twilight. Although well-loved or at least was well-loved, many people believed that Edward was extremely possessive towards Bella.  Edward stalked her and was easily jealous of Jacob for just breathing the same air as Bella. He had his sister stalk her when he couldn’t and forbade Bella from even seeing Jacob (EXTREMELY POSSESSIVE).

Although it’s obvious now, why wasn’t it as obvious in the beginning? Was it because most of us were 4th grade-highschoolers and so we thought that it was cute when guys watched us sleeping? Was it our hormones. Lack of education?

We loved their relationship, we wanted more of it.

During my time in middle school, I’ve read books like twilight. I loved them and I kept on devouring them. I was in love with these books. Thinking about it, I was in love with possessiveness.

Now, in college, I’ve become the liberal, feminist animal lover of my family. Every book I read, if I see signs of possessiveness, I write in my book and make a note about it. I did that in the beginning of 2016. Almost every book I read (not including philosophy books I read for class) had a mark.

I’m tired and perhaps I’m only overthinking myself. Maybe it all has to do with people’s interpretation, interests and/or desires. I did not come to a conclusion about this topic and perhaps I will never and that is why this is a ramble.

If you made it to the end of this ramble, thank you so much you deserve great things in this world.

What are your thoughts on the issue? Is it easy for you to tell? What are some fictional examples that you can think of that it’s difficult to decide if a character is possessive or just trying to protect another character?



Book to screen adaptations: Why I don’t compare the two

Every time there’s a new trailer for the latest book to screen adaptation, people will take the time to nip pick every little detail, criticizing how it’s nothing like the book.

I find that a bit absurd.

I separate the two. Someone on the internet once said that if the movie is not exactly like the book, then it should have never been a movie in the first place.

The characters 

You are entitled to your opinion, and I’m not trying to change your ways when reviewing movies. However, I just don’t get why people focus on the character physical attributes, and complain how they look nothing like the book character.

I just don’t care. I mean, sure people may have a different cast in mind but I just can’t get really upset by it.

Sometimes, I don’t even notice when a characters has a different hair color, eyes, or even skin tone.

The plot

When reading a book, we all have different perspectives on what the book is and what it’s trying to convey. When you read a book and loved the themes, the screenwriter may have a different these themes.

I don’t care much if the movie is completely different than the book. I almost prefer it. Watching a movie being exactly like the book could be boring because you’ll know what happens.

I’m facing this problem in a lot of the adaptations. Shadowhunters is a prime example. I know where he plot goes, I know what characters end up together, I know all the surprises and I know how the characters develop. That’s why I haven’t been watching the show on Tuesday nights. I wait because frankly, I’m not too excited to watch it.

In the Vampire Academy movie, it was similar to the books, except for the very last scene that caught me off guard. I was excited to see where the movies would go but, of course, it didn’t make a lot of money so no sequels.

The length of the movie is also a factor. Some may say that they could sit through a 5 hour movie if the book was perfectly adapted.

I’m not one of these people

When the change a plot (Sometimes this is a good thing)

I actually don’t mind this. A good example would be the Duff. I hated everything about the book. The characters were either dull or arrogant (the guy in the series was the worst) and the message was horrible.

Book: Seventeen-year-old Bianca Piper is cynical and loyal, and she doesn’t think she’s the prettiest of her friends by a long shot. She’s also way too smart to fall for the charms of man-slut and slimy school hottie Wesley Rush. In fact, Bianca hates him. And when he nicknames her “the Duff,” she throws her Coke in his face. But things aren’t so great at home right now, and Bianca is desperate for a distraction. She ends up kissing Wesley. Worse, she likes it. Eager for escape, Bianca throws herself into a closeted enemies-with-benefits relationship with him. Until it all goes horribly awry. It turns out Wesley isn’t such a bad listener, and his life is pretty screwed up, too. Suddenly Bianca realizes with absolute horror that she’s falling for the guy she thought she hated more than anyone. (Goodreads)

Movie:Frumpy high-school senior Bianca (Mae Whitman) has a rude awakening when she learns that her classmates secretly know her as the DUFF — designated ugly fat friend — to her prettier and more popular pals. Desperate to reinvent herself, Bianca enlists the aid of Wesley (Robbie Amell), a charming jock. In order to save her senior year from becoming a complete disaster, Bianca must find the confidence to overthrow a judgmental student (Bella Thorne) and revolutionize the school’s social order. (IMDb)

Although similar and ridiculously cliched, the movie was more empowering in my opinion. Although Wes was definitely present in both mediums, in the movie he didn’t overshadow the overall message. The movie turned out to be a cute (a bit platitude) and thought provoking.


I just compared the book and movie and I plan to never do that again.

Why I don’t compare:

1. I’m never disappointed because my expectations are low

2. I just don’t care.

A harsher view

“They ruined the book completely!”

Did they really?

Maybe they film makers were just trying to display that your favorite book is actually complete do-do.

Just kidding 


Do you compare books-to-screen adaptations?




Discussion: Going into books BLINDLY

“Your”Blind” Books: When went into a book without reading the synopsis and reviews, generally having no absolute knowledge of the book.

Going into books “blind” is sometimes a thrilling experience. You don’t know anything about the characters or the plot, making the book seem mysterious. You open the book, wondering where these words on the pages will take you.

However, going into books blindly is sometimes a terrible thing. You don’t know where you going. It sometimes feels like you are wearing a blind fold on a 100 story cliff, fearing you might fall. You don’t know if you’ll like book, hoping you do because you don’t want to spend hours reading a crappy book.

So what’s the best way to go into a book? Knowing the synopsis? Going to it blindly?

My opinion:

I’ve gone into many  books blindly. It’s sometimes hard because you have the urge to open the flap of the dust jacket to read what the book is about, or look up the synopsis on GoodReads. However, once you break that barrier, and read the first few chapters, the urg disappears.

Now I’ve liked some of the “blind” books and I’ve also hated some.

Blind Book I liked: The Paradox of Vertical Flight

Now I think I will always praise this book. It’s my favorite because it’s hilarious and thought provoking. I personally believe it’s a book everyone should read, and I also encourage people to not read the synopsis because that’s what I did. This “blind” book became my absolute favorite of all time.

Blind book I disliked: Trouble is a Friend of Mine

This book had so much potential, yet it failed for me. I can’t really describe why I hate this book so much. UGHHH. I wished I read the reviews for this because it took me about 2 weeks to listen to the book. I could have listen to a different book that was FAR BETTER.

Blind book  I liked: Suicide Notes

This book is absolutely amazing. It’s funny, honest, and somehow, the ending surprised me. It’s definitely under hyped, and more people should read it. I’M SO GLAD I WENT THROUGH THIS BLIND BECAUSE IT WAS SO MUCH BETTER.

Blind book I disliked: Story of a Girl

I’m not even going to discuss this book. I wished I read both the synopsis and the reviews.

So obviously, I’v experienced both the postives and negatives when going into a book blind.

So what’s my verdict?


I sometimes can’t help but like to be surprise. Although I’ve experienced a lot of bad books because of me going into them blindly, I discovered a lot of amazing books. They wouldn’t be the same if I read the synopsis or read the reviews. When I was younger, I used to never read the back of the book, and purely just read because of cover and title, and I have a lot of childhood faves because of that.

I went to the Percy Jackson books blindly, without even knowing it’s about Greek Gods. And oh my goodness, reading it as a child, I thought this series was just GOLD. I still think it’s gold.

I think there’s something beautiful about going into a book blindly…it makes me feel proud to be a reader.

What about you guys? Do you like or dislike going into a book blindly?